Farewell My Singapore -

Tonight, I stand at Changi. It is raining outside—that sudden, violent tropical rain that turns the streets into rivers for fifteen minutes before vanishing like it never existed. I watch the planes take off. Somewhere, a family is reuniting. Somewhere, a student is leaving for university. Somewhere, a worker is flying home to see a newborn child.

Farewell, my Singapore. Farewell to the shophouses of Joo Chiat, painted in pastel blues and yellows like a Wes Anderson film. Farewell to the Singlish I finally learned to speak— "Can, can," "Alamak," "Don't shy-shy" —words that will sound foreign on my tongue back home. Farewell to the perpetual summer, where Christmas comes with palm trees and air-conditioning. farewell my singapore

I am not leaving because I am unhappy. I am leaving because visas expire, because lives are itineraries, because love for a country does not always grant you the right to stay. Tonight, I stand at Changi

I learned to walk slowly here. In the beginning, I walked fast—like a foreigner, always chasing time. But Singapore taught me the art of the leisurely stroll through the Botanic Gardens at dusk, when the monitor lizards slip into the water and the fruit bats hang upside down like forgotten umbrellas. It taught me that in a nation famous for speed, the most important things move slowly: the growth of an orchid, the patience of a hawker perfecting the same bowl of noodles for forty years, the way a friendship forms over shared teh tarik in a coffee shop. Somewhere, a family is reuniting

And yet, I do not belong. That is the quiet ache of the expatriate, the migrant, the sojourner. I have lived here long enough to know the shortcuts, the best nasi lemak , the unspoken rules of queuing with a tissue packet. But I will never know what it means to sing the national anthem in a school hall with a hand over my heart. I will never know the fear of Merdeka or the pride of National Day from the inside. I am a guest. A grateful, heartbroken guest.