My — Tickle

And that, oddly, is the most comforting tickle of all.

Some people hate their tickle. They train themselves to suppress it, to go rigid, to stare blankly. I have tried. I cannot. My tickle is honest in a way the rest of me rarely is. It does not negotiate. It does not perform dignity. It just reacts —a raw, prehistoric flinch that reminds me I am, beneath all the adult armor, just a bundle of nerves wrapped in skin. my tickle

So I have made peace with it. My tickle is not a flaw. It is a doorway. It is the quickest route from my guarded head to my helpless heart. And sometimes, on a quiet evening, when a trusted hand hovers near my ribs and I squeak before they even touch me, I realize: this ridiculous, uncontrollable shiver is just my body’s way of whispering, You are alive. You are here. And you are not in charge. And that, oddly, is the most comforting tickle of all

As a child, my tickle was a torture device wielded by older cousins. As a teenager, it was a secret to hide on first dates. As an adult, it has become a strange litmus test for intimacy. To show someone where my tickle lives is to hand them a tiny, ridiculous weapon. It says: You can make me lose control. You can make me beg for mercy while smiling. I have tried

It is not a laugh. It is not joy. It is an involuntary coup.