Roula 1995 May 2026

I tried to kiss her. She turned her cheek, but her hand found mine and held it. Hard. For a long time.

"Yes."

"Where?"

I first saw her at dusk, sitting on a low wall, smoking a cigarette she didn't seem to enjoy. The sun was a red coin sinking behind Mount Hymettus. She didn't look at me when I approached. She just said, "You are the American."

"I am."

"Not where. When. I am leaving the country. September. My aunt in Montreal. She has a diner. I will serve eggs and coffee to strangers who will never know my father's name."

She nodded, as if this were the only honest thing anyone had said all summer. She stubbed out the cigarette and handed me a fig, split open, its flesh pink and wet. "Eat," she said. "My mother says fruit is the only prayer that answers back." That July, the heat was biblical. The cicadas screamed from noon until three, then fell silent as if ashamed of their fervor. We spent afternoons in the cool hollow of her building's stairwell, sitting on the third step, listening to a crackling radio play some forgotten pop song—"Everybody Hurts" by R.E.M., which she translated for me line by line, finding darker meanings in the English. Roula 1995

I never saw Roula again. Twenty years later, I looked her up. The Montreal diner had closed in 2002. A cousin told me she had married a contractor, moved to Florida, then divorced. Another said she had returned to Greece, taught English to refugee children in a camp near Lesvos. A third said she had died—cancer, quick, in 2014. No obituary. No grave I could find.