The Sparrow By Mary Doria Russell -

And then he tells Emilio something extraordinary. The radio signal from Rakhat? It has not stopped. The music is still playing. And the Jesuits have decoded more of it. The very first piece of data ever transmitted, the very first song of the universe, was not a greeting or a scientific treatise.

Finally, after ten months, a salvage vessel from Earth—sent to investigate the lost Jesuit mission—found him. They found a ghost. Emilio Sandoz was a skeleton wrapped in scarred skin, his hands useless, his spirit a black void. He was the only survivor. the sparrow by mary doria russell

Then, everything fell apart.

The story ends not with a triumphant return to God, but with Emilio, his hands still ruined, sitting in a garden on Earth, listening to the wind. He is no longer a priest. He is no longer a believer. But he is still alive. And he is beginning, just beginning, to wonder if being alive might be enough. And then he tells Emilio something extraordinary